Trial and error. That is exactly how I would describe the last couple of months for me.
Pitty Parties piss me off. And that's why I try not to throw them. When people ask me, "how is it to just be on your own? Without parents? Taking care of a house?" Wanna know?
I could say, "It freaking sucks" cause, sometimes it does. But I hope for what has been said, that when God closes one door, he opens another. So, I respond... "it's actually not too bad."
I wonder, a lot, why I had to face what I have faced at such a young age, and so fast. But, I can see, although it is a cloudy and foggy road, that God has some pretty awesome things in store for me.
Losing my Dad for example brought me to live with my amazing Grandma in Springville. Exposed me to a whole new group of people, and I got involved in something that I would not have been involved in in West Jordan. The National FFA Organization. When I joined, it was for fun. I had no clue the impact that it would have on my life. The people that I would meet and grow to love. That's just one example...
I am no stranger to responsibility. I have had a lot on my shoulders from the get go. Taking care of, and practically raising my little sisters, learning to do laundry (if you wash everything in cold water, you don't have to sort :) learning to cook, clean. The list goes on and on... I look at some of my friends that have hardly any responsibility and I want to be like them. Sometimes. But then I remember that God taught me these things for a reason. Ya, it makes my roommate mad that I am almost anal about having a clean house. But, I was taught by a loving Grandmother, that cleanliness is next to Godliness. It's absolutely true. It is a lot easier to feel the spirit in a clean environment. I'm not talking spotless... but clean. Orderly.
When I look back and forward on my life, I am thankful for what I have. As crappy as it sometimes is, it is making me into a better person that can sympathize with others and understand them. Thanks be to God.
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